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Nov. 3-9: Shallow Person Awareness Week... the perfect time to acknowledge and embrace your shallowness.
Nov. 10: Forget-Me-Not Day... share a hug with a friend, and make 'em feel special... but most importantly... don't forget ME!
Nov. 11: Veteran's Day... honor and salute the real life heroes who served our nation.
Nov. 15: Swear Day (Tell all your friends  ... I, however, will probably not participate in the festivities.)
The fifteenth of every month is... "Holy [bleep], it's Swear Day!" Don't get used to it though, because afterwards we have to go back to that [bleep] "clean mouth" [bleep]. Also, it doesn't count around parents, teachers, or other easily offended [bleep]... wouldn't want to [bleep] anybody off. Please, don't abuse Swear Day. It is not an excuse to say "[bleep]" or "[bleep]" or "[bleep]" or "[bleep]" around children and old ladies, it is simply restitution for the [bleep] we all live through every month. [Edited to keep this site friendly.]
Nov. 21: Aliday... my 13th birthday... YAY!
Nov. 28: Thanksgiving... mmmmmmmm.
11/1/02
ARGGHH
Have you ever had that feeling all you want is someone to just hold you and not let go? I actually came home from school yesterday in a pretty good mood... I skipped trick-or-treating and watched a really good movie (The Count of Monte Cristo) and then I found out that something awful happened last night... and that's all I want right now... someone to hold me tight and just be there for me.
I thought last week was horrible... yesterday topped the whole week put together. I feel so crappy that I stayed home from school today. I just want to curl up in bed and watch a silly movie now. Who would like to join me?
I've resigned myself to the fact that i had a baaaaad month. Things are going to start turning around today, right?
Right?
11/3/02
OMG!
Is it just me... or are some guys looking particularly sexy lately? (I won't mention any specific names... LOL! but he wore the sweater I gave him... and he looked soooo fine!) I went to a party last night that I was kind of dreading... didn't know anyone but Scott there and I figured he'd probably be so busy talking to everyone else that I'd feel weird, but I went and had one of the BEST 4-1/2 hours of my life... and this hug junkie's withdrawals had a nice fix too (*sigh*).
Ummmm.... not to change the subject or anything, but every year around this time, people ask me "What do you want for your birthday?" and every year I say, "I don't know." But this year I'm going to try to help y'all out
- Jewelry - now I'm not saying go out and buy me a $1,000,000 ring... I'm saying like a cute lil bracelet with beads, charms, or something on it, nothing big... maybe a necklace with beads, charms, or a stone or something, or just a pair of dangly earrings.
- Bouquet - just a simple bouquet of flowers because I love flowers... they're not that expensive, they're pretty, and they show you care
 ... I'm totally serious about this one.
- Watch - I don't have a watch, I never know what time it is, so a watch would be VERY helpful... just something that tells time, looks nice, and goes with everything (please, girly too... nothing guyish).
- Limo and Chauffeur - it's nice, luxurious, and a cute driver would be nice (hahaha... wishful thinking).
- Shirt - like a cute lil T-shirt that says something cute or funny on it (medium or large is probably your best bet 'cause those smalls are TINY but you know what I look like, so use your own judgment...).
- Laptop - if you're feeling particularly generous (lol)... although this new program on my computer is faster, it's limiting when I want to play computer games... (hahaha).
- Star - not asking for much... just a star named after me so I can wish on it
 (**star light, star bright, send a hott guy my way tonight...**).
11/5/02
... and how do I really feel?
I haven't been online much in the last couple of days. Sometimes I actually like taking a break from bad posture and typing too much, but whenever I'm not online for a day or so, I feel like I'm missing out... like my friends are out there, having fun without me. Then I get online, and I haven't missed a dang thing (*sigh...*). And why is it that I always seem to have all these great things to write down or say to people until I get in front of the computer, and then sometimes I just go blank? Like right now all I can think of to type is...
I hate homework. I hate homework. I hate homework. I hate homework. I hate homework. I hate homework. I hate homework. I hate homework. I hate homework. I hate homework. I hate homework. I hate homework. I hate homework. I hate homework. I hate homework. I hate homework. I hate homework. I hate homework. I hate homework. I hate homework. I hate homework. I hate homework. I hate homework. I hate homework. I hate homework.
Maybe it's because that's what I really should be doing, and instead I'm doing this.
11/6/02
Is it morning already?
Today was sorta interesting. It began much earlier than my body would have liked because I had basketball tryouts again for the second morning in a row one more to go. I guess it's kind of exciting trying out for basketball, but at the same time it's just plain nerve-wracking not knowing for another day or so if I'm actually going to make the team. My knee hurts... don't ask why  ... let's just say my nickname for yesterday was "Grace."
I feel like days are flying by until my birthday... not enough time to do some of the things that I really want to do, but just enough time to waste. I can't even decide if I want to have a party or not. The weather was extraordinarily fallish today and again I found myself giddy with autumnal excitement. The leaves are turning from shades of green to brilliant reds, burnished golds, and bright oranges almost as fast as it takes me to decide which outfit to wear.
11/8/02
I made the basketball team!!!
'Nuff said...
11/10/02
Disconcerted (dis·con·cert·ed)
- To break up the harmonious progress of; to throw into disorder or confusion
- To confuse the faculties of; to disturb the composure of; to discompose; to abash
- How you feel when you meet really hot guys and realize they're at least 2 or 3 years older than you, so yeah no way
- How you feel when you're in the bathroom, doing bathroom things, and there are two to four cats staring at you... or a nosy beagle
I just got back from spending the night at Kathleen's house where I had an awesome time with her and as an unexpected bonus I met her droolingly buff older brothers (grrrrrrrrr... it's times like these I wish I was in high school!!!). Kat, you didn't warn me!!!
I couldn't stay as long as I wanted at Kat's house cuz I had grandparents visiting, so I came home to say goodbye to them and then to unbore myself I got on the Internet... I'm young enough that I can't remember not having the Internet. In cyberspace, you can find just about anything. While surfing before bed a few nights ago, I came across a cute little flash bit involving singing bugs. When someone sent me the link and I watched it, I couldn't help but smile... and I love Foxtrot. I can identify with it... Yet, this web page disturbs and intrigues me at the same time... dunno why... well, actually... yes, I do... and my favorite letters are N and O (LOL). Okay, 'fess up... what letters did you linger on?... and while you're being totally honest, answer this... when you were little, did you really believe that Keebler products were made by elves in a hollow tree?... ha! okay, so it's just me, then... hmmmm.
11/14/02
<insert witty title here>
My SubPro server was down for a couple of days, so the link to my site was unavailable unless you asked me, but there wasn't much to miss. I've been sick with a bad cold and the last couple of days were full of absolutely boring classes and obscene amounts of homework, lots of coughing and sneezing... oh, and basketball practice! The forecast for tomorrow is more of the same. Basketball is going to consume me for a while. If you want to catch one of my games, I put the schedule on the first page. Oh yeah, and while the SubPro was down, something happened to a couple of guestbook entries... I swear... I didn't delete them!! They just vanished! So, if you signed and it's gone, please sign again... thanx!
I found this awesome song that reminds me of my bro in the Army... he actually called a few nights ago and I got to talk to him! I miss him so much.
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There's another world inside of me
that you may never see
There's secrets in this life
that I can't hide
Well somewhere in this darkness
there's a light that I can't find
Well maybe it's too far away
Or maybe I'm just blind
Maybe I'm just blind
[chorus]
So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
Hold me when I'm scared
And love me when I'm gone
Everything I am
And everything in me
Wants to be the one
you wanted me to be
I'll never let you down
Even if I could
I'd give up everything
If only for your good
So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
Hold me when I'm scared
You won't always be there
So love me when I'm gone
Love me when I'm gone |
When your education x-ray
cannot see under my skin
I won't tell you a damn thing
that I could not tell my friends
Roaming through this darkness,
I'm alive but I'm alone
And part of me is fighting this
But part of me is gone
[chorus]
Maybe I'm just blind
[chorus]
Love me when I'm gone
Love me when I'm gone
When I'm gone
When I'm gone
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REMINDERS: Swear Day is tomorrow (hehe) and my birthday is in 7 days... does anyone want to spoil me?
Okay, Ali needs sleep. *thud*
11/20/02
Mixed emotions! 
If y'all know me, then you already know the long story of how much and how long I've liked Scott... and the fact that that he asked me out a few weeks ago and then broke up with me for reasons I'll never fully understand, except he said it was because he didn't have enough time to see me while he was still involved in football and soccer. Well, anyway, you'll be happy to know that my last heartache has been mended (and hopefully it will stay mended for a while) because he asked me out again last night and I was so happy to say, "YES!"... but it's not without some mixed emotion because last Saturday, I finally met this guy I've been talking to on AIM for a few months. We have a lot in common even the same birthday. We saw The Santa Clause 2 movie and I discovered that Kyle is one of the sweetest and most respectful guys I've met in a long time. I hope we can be good friends even though I know he's not very happy with my decision to go out with Scott again.
I'm really excited that Scott asked me, but I still feel really bad that Kyle got upset about it. Even though he didn't like it and got angry about it initially, he quickly calmed down about it and says he understands. I have a lot of respect for him because of that. He told me he would have liked for us to go out instead and I have to admit that I like knowing he feels that way about me. Why is it that there are times when no one I really like seems very interested in me and then suddenly I have way too many guys interested in me all at one time?... and in one way or another I like more than one of them, so even when I'm really happy about going out with one, I feel bad for saying "no" to someone else because there's always that risk that they may never ask me again. Anyway, before I told Scott I'd go out with him, Kyle and I had already made plans to go to Nickelrama and Sali's on Friday to celebrate our mutual birthday (Thursday is when we both turn 13!!! YAY!), so I talked to them both about it and we're still gonna do that. Gosh, they are both amazing guys! How did I get so lucky to be able to know them both?
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FlirtatiousMe59: hey (whoa... haven't seen you online in a while..)
punkrockdude06: i have aim back!!
FlirtatiousMe59: yay!
punkrockdude06: i missed ya!
FlirtatiousMe59: missed you too!
punkrockdude06: ;-)
FlirtatiousMe59: i bet i missed you more...;-)
punkrockdude06: nah
punkrockdude06: lol
FlirtatiousMe59: lol
FlirtatiousMe59: are you ungrounded yet?
punkrockdude06: no
punkrockdude06: but o well
punkrockdude06: football and soccer r over!! yay!!
FlirtatiousMe59: yay! let's celebrate!!!
punkrockdude06: ;-)
FlirtatiousMe59: :-D so hurry up and get ungrounded! :-D
punkrockdude06: so tony and kelsey r gonna go out
FlirtatiousMe59: are they?
punkrockdude06: i dont kno
FlirtatiousMe59: i know they like each other
punkrockdude06: they should go out then
punkrockdude06: i heard ya talked to ***** on aim ... he is like man that ali girl is hott, and im like yea i kno
FlirtatiousMe59: yeah... lol
punkrockdude06: lol
FlirtatiousMe59: he wanted to call but i wouldn't give him my #...
punkrockdude06: i was thinking "but u cant have her...she's mine lol"
FlirtatiousMe59: i'm yours? ;-)
punkrockdude06: and yes ur mine lol
FlirtatiousMe59: :-D:-D:-D
FlirtatiousMe59: so i repeat... then hurry up and get ungrounded!
FlirtatiousMe59: i got out of school early today to go the doctor for a check up and we drove past your school and i was like scott's right in there... weird... can i go in???
punkrockdude06: lol
punkrockdude06: ugh.....when r u gonna ask me back out?
punkrockdude06: lol j/p
FlirtatiousMe59: haha lol
punkrockdude06: lol
punkrockdude06: hey...well i was wandering....if u still wanted to, if u would want to go back out with me
FlirtatiousMe59: of course
punkrockdude06: im lost
punkrockdude06: lol
FlirtatiousMe59: wandering... lost? lol well find yourself!
punkrockdude06: i dont kno!! lol
punkrockdude06: so r we going back out now
FlirtatiousMe59: yeah, if that's what you were asking (wondering)
punkrockdude06: ok
punkrockdude06: lol
punkrockdude06: i was asking ya
FlirtatiousMe59: you asking me is the best birthday present ever!
punkrockdude06: well i have to go so ill ttyl
punkrockdude06: my mom will b home in a minute
FlirtatiousMe59: okay
FlirtatiousMe59: bye
punkrockdude06: luv ya
FlirtatiousMe59: luv ya too!!!:-*
punkrockdude06: bye babe ;-)
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Tw OTaiLeDmOu SE: did kelsey say anything about me today?
FlirtatiousMe59: i really haven't talked to her
FlirtatiousMe59: i left early for a doctor appointment
Tw OTaiLeDmOu SE: ohh ok
Tw OTaiLeDmOu SE: that sucks.
FlirtatiousMe59:scott thinks you two should go out
Tw OTaiLeDmOu SE: i talked to him about it today
Tw OTaiLeDmOu SE: i told him that he should go back out with you
Tw OTaiLeDmOu SE: he told me today hes through with soccer
FlirtatiousMe59: and he asked me tonight
FlirtatiousMe59: thanx
Tw OTaiLeDmOu SE: no problem.
Tw OTaiLeDmOu SE: so im getting partial credit for this yes i am
FlirtatiousMe59: lol
Tw OTaiLeDmOu SE signed off at 7:42:34 PM.
Tw OTaiLeDmOu SE signed on at 7:42:39 PM.
Tw OTaiLeDmOu SE: am i back online?
FlirtatiousMe59: no
FlirtatiousMe59: :-P
Tw OTaiLeDmOu SE: well im glad to see you are sarcastic
FlirtatiousMe59: only kevin can beat my sarcasm
Tw OTaiLeDmOu SE: bladed darkness?
FlirtatiousMe59: yep
Tw OTaiLeDmOu SE: ive never known him to be very sarcastic but ok
FlirtatiousMe59: he's the king and i'm next in line for the throne (so he says) omg you should talk to him at 2 in the morning, it's hilarious!
Tw OTaiLeDmOu SE: haha. well lately ive been finding out alot about kelsey. shes pretty cool. except i think she needs to chill with the homework and take some time to talk to me..
FlirtatiousMe59: lol i'll give her that pointer
FlirtatiousMe59: did scott seem reluctant to ask me out again?
Tw OTaiLeDmOu SE: no. i didnt talk to him much about it except in the shower [at school]...i just told him about kelsey and that he should go back out with you. and he said he was planning to go back out with you
FlirtatiousMe59: okay, good
FlirtatiousMe59: lol
FlirtatiousMe59: you two talk about us in the shower a lot, huh?
Tw OTaiLeDmOu SE: yea. we do. only manly talk time we get really.
FlirtatiousMe59: sweet lol
FlirtatiousMe59: wet, naked, talking about me.... hmmmmm..... i could get used to that :-D
Tw OTaiLeDmOu SE: haha.
Tw OTaiLeDmOu SE: what all does kelsey say about me if anything
Tw OTaiLeDmOu SE: when she does talk about me
FlirtatiousMe59: she asks me what you say about her all the time
FlirtatiousMe59: lol
Awwww.... isn't that cute?
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On Monday I got to start in our first basketball game, but we lost to O'Banion 27-9... oh, well... we'll do better next time... and maybe I won't be so nervous!
Oh, yeah... yesterday, I got a package in the mail from Blake! She wrote happy birthday on it in French, Spanish, English... and Korean! How cute! I wanted to open it right away, but I'll wait until Thursday... torture...
11/21/02
Wooohooo it's my birthday... and i'm sick!
Today I am one year older than I was this time last year. It figures... I wait 13 years for this day, and ummm... yeah, it wasn't pretty... in fact I think I'm gonna go lie down... I went to school feeling just fine, but whatever is going around school, I think I caught it... it sux to be sick on your birthday!!!
11/27/02
No school and sooooo bored... YA-YA!
Here it is... Thanksgiving break and I'm feeling kinda blah and I'm rather irritated at myself for feeling like this cuz hey, it's vacation!!! My mind wants to find something to do, but I can't seem to concentrate on anything cuz I wanna do something with Scott, durnit... I haven't seen him since his party cuz he's still grounded, and I miss him! Maybe this weekend... maybe next... meh... I'm even starting to talk like him... lol.
Yesterday was my parents' 25th anniversary! Congratulations, Mom and Dad! I love you both!
11/29/02
The day after
I survived yesterday's tempting and torturing smells of roast turkey and pumpkin pie without over-eating... yay for me!... and I'm so proud of myself... I even tried a candied yam after several years of totally refusing to put something like that in my mouth, and found it... ummm.... well, not exactly disgusting, but I still don't see why the rest of my family can't do without them on Thanksgiving. Now, my mom's homemade turkey and noodles... that's another story... YUMMM!
I actually spent a very blissful holiday being thankful that I could spend the whole day in my pajamas watching movies and classic Friends episodes on DVDs... and talking to a few special friends on IM, although not many were online yesterday. I'm very disappointed that a certain someone hasn't talked to me much or called me though Urg. But in case I don't say it often enough... I'm really thankful for my friends and family... y'all make everything worthwhile.
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