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7/01/03
A song in my heart... well, maybe two...
When someone you care a lot about cares a lot about you back, it feels really, really good. I have the most incredible friend in New York, and I've never even met him (in person) but we chat almost every day and I swear, he's become one of my best friends ever! And guess what? Now he's gonna send a letter and a pic in the mail... I'm so excited! **happy dance** He also gave me some songs recently that I keep listening to over an over and over... they're beautiful!
And I'm feeling pretty good about things... **reaches to hug my teddy bear** ... and besides that, Dustin's back from camp and we seem to be okay (we're joking around with each other some and playing online games again... and even occasionally chatting... lol)... I'm just still a lil' paranoid about IMing him first. Scott and I have yelled at each other over IM (well, yeah... I did most of the yelling... lol... but hey, he sooooo deserved it!)... and now I think I can put it all behind me and still be his friend (so, yeah... I signed his subpro gb afterall)... AND I think I am even okay with the guy who sent me that email I posted last month... nothing impressive... just "okay"... well, I need it to be okay... I just don't want it to be like it was anymore and hopefully he knows how I feel about it... I don't wanna go there again!
I need to spend some time with my friends! Leah, Taylor... I miss you! And Becca... I swear I'll pay you back that $7 I owe you... I have it right here, I just keep forgetting to remind my mom to drive me over there to give it to you. Please everyone, bug me about it 'til I do! And guess what I've noticed... a lot of the people who view my AIM subprofile I don't even know!! Who are these people?! LOL. Are ya shy? Why don't you talk to me?
Oh, and it's only 4 days until Joel and Blake's wedding!!! In case I don't post something for a few days, don't worry... I just have toget 'em married off and then I'll be back here with lots to say... I hope... lol.
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PS: Yes! I've succeeded in getting Phoebe (my beagle) to speak!! Maybe she's not as learning impaired as I thought... heh.
I want to be the eyes that look deep into your soul.
7/06/03
Wedding Pics!!!
My bro and his new bride are off on their honeymoon... I still have grandparents visiting. I'll add something worthwhile in a few days... meanwhile, enjoy the pics!
7/10/03
..::gOoD TiMeS::..
All my company has gone home, and now that my life is returning to normal I finally have a moment to jot down a few thoughts.
The last few days before my bro's wedding were SOOOOOOOOO hectic!!! Last Thursday... okay, first, my mom's parents arrived and every time that my mom's mom comes (or we visit her) she singles out one person and she picks on them the WHOLE time... every flaw... guess who it was this time... *raises hand*... One of the first things that happened was my skirt tag was sticking out and she tucked it back in and said, "Unless having your underwear tag sticking out is the style now..." and then we told her about my sis's freak accident at the nail salon... she was getting her eyebrows waxed and then all through the rehearsal and wedding she had wax burns we had to try to camouflage around her eyebrows (but she managed to look beautiful anyway, as always)!! So anyway, after we told her about Jenna's burns to avoid any critical remarks on that, my gram looks at her and then at me and says, "You hardly have any eyebrows left!".... UURRRGGGGGG! (and I didn't even get mine waxed!)
Next, on Thursday evening, we went to my bro's wedding rehearsal, which was SO cute!  At one of her showers they made a bouquet out of the bows and ribbons on all the gifts and a veil from some of the netting someone used to wrap one of the gifts. Blake practiced walking down the aisle with her father and we all got to watch her and she wore the veil and carried the bow bouquet! She had the cutest dress too!  When we were practicing the families' entrances they had my DAD and me stand in for the grandmothers! But I will have to say that I LOVE where they got married. It was indoors in an atrium, and there were trees, bushes and a beautiful waterfall... the walk-way was like a canopy of trees. It was beautiful!!! We all noticed how the Army has an affect on Joel's stance... he stood up there "at attention." And Blake was like, "If you wanna stand like that, it's fine, just SMILE!"
On Friday, my whole family (minus the bride and groom) gathered at my house for a barbecue. My "whole family" consisted of everyone in this pic, including my Grandma's *cough*boyfriend*cough* whom no one particularly wanted to come. If you wanna see more pics, click the links above in the last blog entry.
(Back) Dad, Grumpy, Mom, Gram, Merry, Tim,
Brandy, Jake, Gus, Grandma, Dan, and Sally
(Front) Jenna and Me!
By Friday night, Joel and Blake realized that his tux had been sent to College Station instead of here, so all morning Joel and my dad searched for a replacement tux. They found one by 1:30 and the wedding went off without a hitch at 6:00 p.m (I even had one of the D.J.'s ask me to slow dance with him... what did I say, you ask?................... YeS! of course... duuuuhhhh.... )... but then the minister forgot to sign the marriage license after the ceremony! but they got that taken care of Sunday morning and flew back to California Sunday evening. Yesterday they called and said they had signed the papers on an officer's house with an ocean view! Looks like they can move in asap and it sounds beautiful!!
Well I'm outta time tonight... come back for more... hahaha.
All I have are the empty boxes to carry away your heart.
7/12/03
Two interesting convos...
I had these AIM conversations last night and I think I need to comment... lol.
Now you'll see why I love to talk to Nick... *sigh* why can't guys in Texas say such nice things to me?
Nick (Falc)*:
you are not ugly,
you are not chubby,
you are not fat,
your face is fine,
regardless of what you think about any of those.
you are pretty,
you are sexy,
you are beautiful,
both on the inside,
and on the outside,
you are special,
you are unique,
you are incredible,
you are incredibly smart and intelligent,
you are crazy ,
you are the nicest person i know,
you have a beautiful soul and heart,
you are funny,
you are wonderful,
you are patient with me (even tho i'm a dork),
you have few flaws or faults that i have seen (or you have chosen to show me),
you brighten my day and nights,
you are ali, my love.
Nick: that isn't a poem
Nick: that's just something i wanted to say right now.
Nick: what the hell happened to my font?
Nick: asfsdfsdfsdaf
Nick: oh yeah, and you look great in a bathing suit,
Me: awww
Me: i'm speechless...
... And now you'll see why Scott continues to baffle me... (he's on vacation in California btw)
Scott: hey wut u doin up
Me: hey
Me: just chatting
Me: you?
Scott: same
Scott: its only 2 here tho
Me: well i'm quite a night person
Me: lol
Scott: i can see that
Me: yep
Me: having fun there?
Scott: yah !!
Me: kool
Me: what all have you been doing?
Scott: fun stuff !!
Me: like.... ?
Scott: six flags , haunted places stuff like that'
Me: kool
Me: how much longer will you be there?
Scott: 10 days then im comin home !!
Scott:
Me : kool
Scott: yah
Scott: i miss everyone
Me: do you talk to people online or by phone much?
Me: while you're there i mean
Scott: yah
Scott: i have talked to tray tay and kaylee
Me: which kaylee is it? what's her last name?
Scott: i dunno , she will b a fish next year
Me: oh ok
Me: cuz i know a kaylee at north
Scott: o ok
Scott: i dont kno ur kaylee then i dont think
Me: nope
Scott: k
Scott: kaylee makes me cry lol
Me: why?
Scott: lol u dont wanna kno
Me: o...k....
Scott: i guess its cuz i love her but life was fucked up and ppl make it to where we couldnt b together ,,,, sumthin like that
Me: well i understand how that goes all too well
Scott: i doubt it this time
Scott: cuz u were never put on a list by several friends saying " i dont care how much u like her ... i liked her long before u met her and aven if she does like u , u cant have her ... for our sake "
Me: well i've had something far worse in my opinion but you wouldn't understand
Scott: i dunno , but wut makes me cry sumtimes is i kno i love her ... u kno ?
Me: yeah... i do
Scott: u have actually loved sum one
Me: yes
Scott: thats kool , he love u back
Me: he said he did
Scott: but did he mean it
Scott: u kno i got teary cuz of u lol
Me: well i believe he did, but i guess not enough
Scott: oh , im sorry
Me: i cried a lot over you (i do over any guy i really care about)... you would never understand what i went through... but i realized it just wasn't gonna work cuz you didn't want things the way i did... i've probably had three guys who've left me feeling like my heart's been stomped on but after a while you've gotta get over it and if it's meant to happen it'll happen
Me: i don't even go out with guys until i've got strong feelings for them... so when it's over it always hurts
Scott: i really did like u ali , but like NO ONE has ever been as nice to me as u were not even my family , and i got a bit scared'
Scott: and i didnt wanna lose u but i also didnt want to hurt u ne more
Me: i'm sorry but that's just me... if i care about someone i'm gonna go all out to show it
Scott: and thats good , i just wasnt used to it AND u dont kno all the shit that was happenin to me at the same time
Scott: i cant say im sorry to u enough
Me: it's okay... you obviously need someone who's different
Scott: well then i did , i needed sum one to kinda be a bitch lol
Me: well that's not me
Scott: i kno , things n life have been nicer to me lately so i dont need to b called ne thing bad , lol
Me: why you thinking about kaylee? i thought you were happy with tay?
Scott: lol , well i REALLY REALLY like tay but i kno that i LOVE kaylee
Me: then fix it with kaylee and don't care what others think
Scott: i dont wanna talk bout it lol she makes me cry when i think bout her lol
Scott: u have ne one special at the moment
Me: i'm not dating anyone
Scott: y not
Me: dustin broke up with me cuz of the false rumors about jenna and me and then he also said i was smothering... so yeah... i guess i am
Scott : hey its ok tho ,
Me: what's okay about it??
Scott: that u really care
Me: yeah but guys don't, apparently
Scott: if we were goin out now i wouldnt really mind it
Me: you know WHY i asked to see you so much?
Me: cuz we never did! (while we were going out)
Me: you'd say no, so i'd ask another time
Me: what's wrong with that??
Scott: I KNO !!! IM SOOO SORRY TOO !!! THE ONLY THING I REGRET WAS I WAS BAD TO YOU !!
Me: well you don't even know how much my friends shunned me just cuz i went out with you being older... naturally i was a slut
Scott: cuz of me ?!
Me: i didn't even do anything
Scott: wut , how were u a slut ?!!?
Me: just cuz you were so much older
Scott: 2 yrs
Me: they assumed
Me: still
Scott: o..
Scott: k
Scott: well i kno and u kno that u arnt
Me: sure but that didn't affect the rumors
Scott: wut rumors , and y didnt u tell me this then
Me :cuz i liked you
Scott: well thats good , i liked u too , but still i didnt wan ne one callin u a slut or makin fun of yah for bein with me
Me: problem was... i didn't know about a lot of it at the time
Scott: well , if i added to ne of ur recent problems im sorry
Me: it's not your fault that people assume things that aren't true
Scott: i kno but still
Scott: it may not mean to much to u , but i do still feel a lil sumthin for u...
Me: i guess that means something to me, but i know we want totally different things
Scott: like wut
Me: i want a more mature commitment
Scott: hey now lol , im more mature now , u were more mature than me then ( u smart ,,,,, ) lol
Me: lol
Scott: lol
Me: if you wanna know what i'm looking for look at my scn profile
Scott: ok
Me: scroll down on my AIM pro and you'll find the link
Scott: gettin there
Scott: and enough self-control to keep his virginity...
Scott: thanx makin me feel bad here
Me: you told me technically you were....
Me: are you changing your story?
Scott: no on a technicality i am , but still
Me: well, what you did showed tremendous self control.. stopping in the middle of it
Scott: i felt horrible !!!!
Scott: i was like whoa ! i shouldnt b doin this !
Scott: the position i was put into by my friends to do it with her , i was like this isnt how i want it to b
Me: i'm glad
Me: most guys aren't like that
Scott: well im not most guys
Me: i've noticed
Scott: how is that
Me: i don't go for the typical guy
Scott: that a good thing u r sayin bout me ?
Me: yep
Me: scary huh?
Me:
Scott: aaaw ur soo sweet
Scott: lol
Me: lol
Scott: lol
Scott: but thanx babe
Scott: im not sayin u would want to , but IF we ever did go back out , i kno i would treat u the way u should b ...
Me :  good
Scott: but thats all up to u lol
Me: well.. i'd sure take my time if there was a next time... you don't just step right back into a fire after being burned...
Scott: yah...well next time , if there is one , we could work things out and actually b together
Scott: with out all the bull shit
Scott: lol
Me: thank God..
Me: lol
Scott: lol
Scott:
Scott: well hey babe imm go night night , its 3 A.M
Me: g'night
Scott: here ne ways
Scott: lol
Scott: night
Scott: 5 where u r
Me: it's almost 5 here
Me: lol
Scott: lol i kno
Scott: later luv ya bye
Me: later
Me: bye
Scott: bye
Scott signed off at 4:59:54 AM.
... And then Nick pointed out this random tag in my SCN profile:
Who the heck is that guy anyway?? And if he really read my profile why didn't he see that that's one of my TURN-OFFS! grrrrrrrrr...
Dustin and I have been talking on AIM a lot more lately too... and more online games... lol. We might even go see the Pirates of the Caribbean together next week... hopefully...
Tonight I'm having Taylor, Leah and Becca over (YAY!)... AND Blake and Joel will be here for one night too (SWEET!). Then... Joel has to go back to Cali and Blake will soon.
How long does it take a letter to get here?!?
7/15/03
Catching up...
Joel and Blake visited us for the weekend then Joel flew back alone to California Sunday (Blake will join him on Friday with their dog)... and also on Saturday Taylor, Leah, and Becca came over and spent the night at my house. We rented and watched a couple movies (Just Married and How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days)... funny stuff *hehe* but it usually takes me a little longer than 10 days... we played ping-pong...stayed up all night... you know... the usual.
On Monday, Dustin and I went to see Pirates of the Caribbean and I thought it was really good... *Johnny Depp and Orlando Bloom=sexxxxxy!!!* Dustin thought it was... okay... lol.
Oh, and hey... I figured out a way to let you see part of one the dances at my bro's wedding on a video clip. I'm the one in the long, black dress and I'm surrounded by others in my family. I don't know if it'll play immediately or take awhile to download for some of you, or maybe it'll play kind of choppy until it's all there, but once you get it, if you need to, you should be able to start it again and view it.
Whatever you do, don't let go.
7/21/03
 Grrrrr...
I spent the day at Leah's house and we walked to a nearby movie theater to watch How to Deal. We really liked the movie and had a great time until afterwards when we were walking back to her house...
We got followed by some older guys in a car and they wouldn't leave us alone until we pissed them off by ignoring them. We weren't exactly sure how old they were but at least a couple looked about 21, and some looked younger (maybe our age or a year or so older). Anyway, the two that were harassing us were older.
We passed by the street they were on to go to her street cuz they were in the same neighborhood, and they kept yelling at us to come over to them, but we kept walking and ignoring them. They got in their car and drove on the road we were walking beside and tried talking to us there, but we ignored them again, and then they kept driving and we thought they had left us alone cuz by then we didn't see where they had gone.
Leah and I turned onto her street and we walked down the road and got in front of a house they came out of and they started calling at us again! One of them said, "Come here... seriously," and we ignored them again... and then they jumped in their car and we heard them say, "Hurry up or we'll lose them," or something like that. Then they drove up beside us and we kept walking and ignoring them until they finally said we had attitude problems and then something like, "Let's get outta here," and they left. *phew*
I had my cell phone along ready to call for help, and it was like we both knew what we should do in that situation, but we were too scared to do it. I told Leah I'm not walking to the movies with her anymore... either we have a ride or I'm not going. What an experience!
7/23/03
Yeah, Ali, you be gangsta fo' lyffff! LOL.
Topanga rules... I swear, all I did was ask a few questions and answer a few... okay, maybe a bunch... 
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Which Homestar Runner character are you?
You are: POM-POM!
You're the best friend in the world. You're an intelligent and laid-back kind of person who plays it cool, but will always stick up for your best bud. No one's really got anything against you. You can be on good terms with just about anybody, and have no trouble attracting the opposite sex. Your great social powers can even allow you to cross the boundaries of the most rigid and hostile cliques. You can best befriend a Homestar or a Strong Bad.
Me: lol
Me: Introducing a new foreign policy - whining at other countries to leave us alone.... <<<me...
Nick: where'd that come from?
Nick: lol
Me: the homestar quiz...
Nick: lmao
Nick: who are you?
Me: haven't found out yet
Nick: oh
Nick: lol
Me: lmao...
Nick: i said to make thanksgiving 12 days long
Me: lol
Me: i almost said that
Me: LMAO!!!! i'm the cheat!
You are: THE CHEAT!
You are a sly and ruthless individual who's always out for the benefit of yourself or your partners in crime. You'll gladly go along with any scheme or dare so long as you get to do something fun and evil. You'll cut any corner you can, which makes it hard to beat bad habits or succeed in artistic endeavors. Your reputation as a troublemaker precedes you and works for you, letting you get away with a lot more since it's what people expect from you. You're preceived as amusing rather than malicious. Milk that for all it's worth. Team up with a Strong Bad or Strong Mad, and pick on a Homestar or Strong Sad.
Nick: lol
Me: yours sounds more like me than the cheat...
Nick: lol
Nick: wow ali, i never thought you had it in you
Me: i am NOT known for being a troublemaker, i'm known as a friggin angel...
Nick: yeah, sure
Nick: that simple little test has exposed you
Nick:
Me: but i do enjoy the occasional devious deed...
Nick: more than u think
This is absolutely insane.
7/24/03
The Three Amigos!
OMG... something incredibly bizarre and funny as heck happened last night. I had a couple friends, Taylor and Leah, spend the night and we were all in the Jacuzzi at around 2:30 in the morning talking (all in bikinis which makes this worse) and we heard a gate open, but we didn't think much of it... maybe an animal was jiggling it or something.... and there's this place in the fence where theres a gate, a lil' area with all the pool equipment, another gate, and then the yard... and 3 guys were hiding in the area in between and ran out really fast and jumped into our pool!
We all screamed and I ran inside looking for my sis, and I yelled, "JENNA! What are they doing out there!?" My parents were still awake, and I got Jenna and my dad and we all ran down the alley and into the cul de sac. We saw them down the road (I had only recognized one, but the other two I didn't see well enough to figure out who they were for sure) and they yelled, "The Three Amigos..." and something else in Spanish... and I yelled back, "I hope that means dumb@$$ in Spanish!!!"  hehehe.
Lmao... scared the crap outta me though. One of them lives like 7-8 blocks away and another that I think was with them lives around 3 blocks away and I'm still not sure who the other one was. I can't figure out how they knew we were in there either cuz you can't see our backyard from the street and there's a creek on the other side of my house! LOL LOL LOL...
7/25/03
Why is he so... "aliable?"
I dreamed your words and photographs into life and found a friend.
For no sensible reason, it's much too easy to share my true self with you.
It's not supposed to be this way.
I am not like most.
An alliance with me takes time and patience,
So why does it feel safe to offer you all the privileges
that I share only with my closest friends?
Unlocking my heart isn't an easy task.
I stored all the keys in a secret hiding place.
How did you find one?
Six months ago his SCN Cyberpals ad made me laugh...
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Sex: Male |
Age: 15 |
Location: NYC, NY, USA |
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what up ppl... 15/m here, 5'9, 140lbs, i like to run track and cross country, play football, party, read, bike, im into lots of music especially rock and punk, i'm sort of straight-edge (no drugs or drinkin), i have a pic of me on my profile, and there's some more info bout me.... anythinn else? lookin to chat wit any rad nice chicks (hehe)...age doesn't matter :-D ...i dont want to talk to any sluts or bitches... IM/email me @ ***** |
... and now I have an amazing friend .
7/26/03
Down and dirty
I went over to Taylor's house today and got "down and dirty" (no, not the way you think I did!) We went swimming in the lake and we were walking around and it suddenly felt like I was sinking in. We began to grab clumps of mud and started throwing it at each other. I loved it cuz Taylor was like a walking target, but everytime she'd throw it at me, I'd dodge them, except one QUITE embarrassing time when she nailed me in the eye/nose/mouth *eww yucky*... then her dad drove the speed boat around the lake while we were on the bow (that's the front of the boat, right?  ) Then we shot off fireworks in the middle of the lake and made wishes on each one, BUT... *in a playful, taunting voice*... I can't tell youuuu or else they won't come truuuuuuuuuue...!
Will there be some place for me and will you be there waiting for me?
7/28/03
Phantom phone calls
Yesterday I had planned to go to the mall, so in an attempt to be presentable, I forced my mom and sis to wake up at 9:00 a.m. (which is HARD for people in this family!) to have our nails done, but then it turned out that Leah had not been contacted about the plans, so we didn't get to go.
Today, we got in touch with Leah and made plans with her, but after I finished calling Taylor I hooked one of our portable phones to my pocket... and then took a nap (cuz i didn't get much sleep last night). Taylor called me back after awhile and was scared cuz someone had called her, maybe 20 times, but didn't say anything and all she could hear was heavy breathing. After I realized what she was saying, I covered the phone and looked at my mom and started laughing cuz I figured her phone phantom was probably my hip pressing redial... and the heavy breathing was probably Phoebe (my beagle) sleeping cuddled up right next to me. I started to apologize for it, but then whomever it really was called again... so *phew* I guess it wasn't meeeee afterall .
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