Katherine and Michael met at a mutual friend's New Year's Eve party. Initially, Kath wasn't too impressed with him, but as the night wore on, she found herself growing more and more attracted to him. The next day, he admitted he was also interested in her. They spent countless hours together, going skiing...... making out, etc. Then comes the dreaded summertime when Katherine and Michael are separated by jobs. This is when their choices put their relationship on the line: Does Kath cheat on Michael or not? You'll just have to read Forever... and find out for yourself.

I dragged my lazy, Sims-playing self back to school this week

Well, winter break officially ended last Tuesday, and frankly, I was ready for it to be over... cuz with the exception of a few really fun, exciting days I shared with some very special people, it was kinda boring... but also kinda relaxing. I haven't made any definite plans yet, but I'm thinking 'bout having a party (guys and girls)... when should I have it... and who wants to come?

Oh, guess what? Miracles do happen... we won our game against Jackson tonight... sorry to say that even though we won, it was probably my own worst game personally and it kind of took the glory out of the triumph for me, but I'm glad for the team! Overall, we did great!

And guess what else? Yesterday IT SNOWED! Wow! We don't get much of that here... Isn't it weird how ordinary, everyday things have the power to make us happy?... like an unexpected Texas snowfall, a great song, a good book, a cherry on your sundae, catching up with friends you missed during a long break from school...... even getting all the exams made up that you missed cuz you were sick.... yeah... those sorts of things.... or even when someone tells you something in confidence that at first kind of surprises and upsets you, and then you realize, whoa... they must be very comfortable with you and trust you a lot, and care about you very much to tell you something that they know could totally change how you feel about them if you didn't care about them too. Well that sort of thing happened to me last night... and that person had to leave with some of my final words being... "I don't know what I feel about this," followed by that person saying, "sorry," and then we had to say goodbyes and leave it at that. After I let it sink in, the initial sadness and disappointment that I had felt started to turn into a more peaceful and almost happy feeling because suddenly I realized that I must mean a lot more to that person than I ever thought for them to share something so personal with me... we've been through a lot and I'm so glad this person is still in my life... you know who you are.

A song for my friends...

I talk to a lot of people that I go to school with or know some other way and I've noticed lately how so many teens that I know personally seem to have such pessimistic outlooks on their lives... and I've seen so much of it in the past few months that I've just got to say something about it here... I've never had a reason to want to die, so I might not understand everything you're feeling right now, but PLEASE don't let anyone else determine your own happiness. Things don't always go the way we want them to... we've all had our hearts broken... me included, but you get over it... there's ALWAYS something to live for... it may be family, your faith, sports, friends, or absolutely anything. When you threaten to take your life because of something that has happened to you, we don't know if you're just saying that, or if you really feel so bad that you seriously think your only alternative is death. Don't think life's not worth living if someone you like a lot doesn't like you in the same way, or someone does something mean to you and thinks it's funny, or because you don't think you're popular enough. If you give up today, something life-altering could happen the next day and you will miss it.

Suicide is a PERMANENT solution to a temporary problem. If you're gone, someone will be left behind with a hole in their heart needing you. People will be hurt if you kill yourself. Nothing you do while you're alive could hurt them as much. There's something out there worth living for... keep looking for it. And if you're just making threats to guilt someone into feeling sorry for you so they'll go out with you, then I hope you realize that's the wrong reason for anyone to date you.

What happens to you is less significant than what happens within you. Believe in yourself and in the power you have to control your own life, day by day. Believe in the strength that you have deep inside. Believe in tomorrow and what it will bring, be hopeful don't reject yourself... don't demand. If you want to be loved, love others and be loveable. Okay, I'll stop preaching now... just look at the song lyrics... and download it if you don't know the song.

Everybody Hurts
REM/Automatic for the People (1992)

When the day is long and the night, the night is yours alone,
When you're sure you've had enough of this life, well hang on.
Don't let yourself go, everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes.

Sometimes everything is wrong. Now it's time to sing along.
When your day is night alone, hold on, hold on.
If you feel like letting go, hold on.
When you think you've had too much of this life, well hang on.

Everybody hurts. Take comfort in your friends.
Everybody hurts. Don't throw your hand. Oh, no. Don't throw your hand.
If you feel like you're alone, no, no, no, you are not alone.

If you're on your own in this life, the days and nights are long,
When you think you've had too much of this life to hang on.

Well, everybody hurts sometimes,
Everybody cries. And everybody hurts sometimes.
And everybody hurts sometimes. So, hold on, hold on.
Hold on, hold on. Hold on, hold on. Hold on, hold on.
Everybody hurts. You are not alone.

If I could make everyone happy, I would!

I should be studying. I should be cleaning my room. I should be spending time with friends. I should be exercising. I shouldn't play Sims so much and I should be doing something more exciting and fun than updating my blog, but here I am... whatever... cuz frankly, today I need to blow off some steam.

You know, I get so freaking tired of people telling me either directly or indirectly that I'm stuck up and a know-it-all and that I don't have time for them anymore... and that I've changed and they wish I'd go back to how I used to be. I have time for you! How did I change? I think I'm still me, so stop acting all pissy and immature when I can't meet your expectations of me. I really think it's you who has no tolerance for me... do you even consider that I might actually care about things you don't consider important?... like how people feel when you say and do hurtful things to them... Ugh, sometimes I feel like I'm cursed because I'm smart and if I dare show that I am, well, then I'm a stuck up know-it-all b!tch... and I'm not even trying to show off, cuz believe me, if I was trying, I'd make sure you knew it! And then if I work out and lose a little weight and wear my make up differently or more of it, or curl my hair, then people say I'm obsessed with myself... if I like an older guy instead of a guy in my class then something must be wrong with the guy for liking me, or I must be a slut... I mean, come on... why are y'all so concerned anyway?

So, in spite of the fact that I make mistakes and don't always handle situations the way I should, and maybe I think if I lost a couple of pounds I might look better in a swim suit, I like myself... I like my family... I'm smart... I care about my appearance... I don't have an eating disorder!... I actually crave intelligent conversations... I don't do drugs and I hate smoking... even though making out is fun if it's with the right person, I actually want a guy who is interested in more than just making out... I'm not all down on life and when something bad happens to me I rebound fast and don't blame others for it... and although I'm a trusting, open person, if you burn me, I'm naturally not gonna be so open and trusting with you anymore... is there something WRONG with that?!? Since when does that mean I think I'm better than you?!? I have a right to choose what I want for me, don't I? I don't put you down for not acting like me, so why do you put me down for not acting like you? Does everyone have to be the same?!?

And for all of y'all who think WHO I date is your business... I'm sorry if my dating older guys once in a while bothers you for whatever reason you have... there are guys my own age I would date and I have... I'm not necessarily looking for older guys, but there are a few I've known a couple of years or so... they like spending time with me and I like being with them, and if we (and our parents) don't have a problem with the age difference of a year or two then why should you? I don't care what a guy's age is, I won't go out with any guy who only asks me out just to have a girlfriend to make out with... some guys don't put any effort into trying to actually talk to me or get to know me, yet they expect me to jump at the chance to go out with them just because they tell me they like me and I'm pretty. Yeah, I like being told I'm pretty (who doesn't?) but for crying out loud, don't tell me you love me and you can't live without me when you don't know the first thing about me!! Maybe I'm only 13, but I know what I want. I'm looking for someone who actually likes to talk to me... who wants to be my friend as well as potentially my boyfriend... someone who's attracted to me (and me to him) but isn't just interested in dating me just to make out with me... or for whatever he can get from me... he has to be someone who genuinely likes me as much as I like him.

Okay, I'll stop yelling at everyone and go play Sims now... bye.

It's hug day!

Here's my hug...  ... oh, and we tromped Sam Houston in basketball 37-5 tonight... finally, a team that's worse than ours... lol. I also personally got tromped in a court stampede and hurt my ankle, too... but I think it's gonna be okay... nothing some ice and a little time won't cure... I also missed my lay up, but oh well... i got 6 steals and I'm happy.

My name's Ali I've got only one head, two eyes, two arms... wait, is that too specific? I've never done this before... ok, well, I'm laid back, but adventurous & athletic. I like to have fun. I'd like to find a guy for a relationship eventually, but I'm 13 and I have time! I'm looking for anyone age 13-15 who's fun & interesting to talk to online/email once in a while. I live near Dallas, but you can be from anywhere... unless you're hoping to maybe actually meet me, and then you need to be close! I have AIM + a website w/ personal info & pics; 5'3-ish (still growing!), long light brown hair w/natural blonde highlights, brown eyes. I love music, most sports, hanging w/friends (no drugs/smoking), movies, TV, Sims, and intelligent conversation mixed with just the right amount of dorkiness.

We all have a superpower that lies dormant within us... it just takes some recognition and a strong dose of energy to perfect it. Wanna know what yours is? Take this test and find out!

"I am a peacemaker. I seek not to destroy, but to create. I am a motivator, an inspirator, a communicator. I can talk with animals. My strength lies not within me, but within those who take my side. My friends are my greatest asset. Large problems don't scare me, because I always have help... and an army of loyal monkey servants." ......... hahaha!

ali is an amazing person
ali is like doubt about the mission
ali is irish
ali is well
ali is a [bleep]ing retard
ali is so cute
ali is simply a fantastic dog
ali is the biggest flop of the christmas season
ali is such a figure
ali is arguably the most electrifying
ali is finding it hard to start
ali is a diffuse heterogeneous lung injury characterized by hypoxemia
ali is the macro control language for optimas
ali is not merely the spontaneous jokester or the comically arrogant self
ali is unexpected

 

LOL!... Who knew?

Oh, and just in case anyone's forgotten, Scott's still the hottest guy alive (in Aliworld anyway....*sigh*)... he's just really lousy at committed relationships... and too many girls want him... (including me... #*@^!)... and he knows it...  ... and I'm 13 and he's 15, and if I'm really as smart as I claim to be, why can't I learn from the past and just get over him already?!? (Don't really expect me to be able to answer that.) We've gone out twice and now we're "just dating"... he broke up with me... we got back together, and then I broke up with him... off again, on again... and now this just-dating-without-commitment arrangement may be the dumbest thing I ever agreed to! I mean, yeah, it's good when we're together and ya gotta date a while before you know ya wanna go out with someone, but... AAHHHH! there are so many times I just wanna say, "screw this, it makes me a jealous, crazy person!" and I definitely want to see the guy I like more than once every 2 or 3 weeks. WHERE'S MY more available, NOT-SO-STEAMING-HOT, yet attractive and sweet 13- or 14-year-old PRINCE CHARMING WITH A GREAT PERSONALITY? HELLO... ARE YOU OUT THERE? Okay, prince, ya gotta have more than just looks... in fact, as long as you care about your appearance, you don't have a unibrow, you're not a slob, and you're somewhat taller than me, that's all that's really important to me as far as looks go (being hot is only a bonus... a really nice bonus)... but more importantly, ya gotta want to spend time with me... *pouts* ... ya gotta have personality, you need to laugh and be happy more often than you're sad or angry, ya gotta have a moderate level of maturity, AND conversational skills... all else flows from there. IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK?!? I guess I'm gonna have to call out my army of loyal monkey servants to help me find you.

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Give up? lol

I'm celebrating Backwards Day by rotting my brain on Sims and online quizzes and talking to friends on AIM. Yesterday, I started out my morning taking the SAT test for four hours and then later in the day I ended up having a five-freaking hour conversation over the phone with a friend... I am such a dork... hahahaha... but he and I had a very insightful and fun conversation... thanx Drew! My army of loyal monkey servants are still searching... I'll keep y'all informed of their progress.